All that I am not

Perhaps it is due to pregnancy hormones, or maybe it is just a natural part of being human, but lately I've found it way too easy to focus on all I don't feel that I am "doing right" in life. It feels as though my weaknesses have been glaringly overshadowing my strengths. Daily, I find one small negative aspect of life so easily coming to the forefront of my focus. Sometimes it just seems too easy to focus on all that I am not.

I am not always very good at being. My focus too easily gets caught up in the doing.
I am not an overly affectionate person.
I am not always filled with patience for my children's antics.
I am not always slow to speak or slow to become angry.
I am not always quick to believe the best in others.
I am not very good at making beautiful things.
I am not filled with will power against the chocolate in the cupboard.
I am not self-motivated to spring clean my house. 
I am not always filled with joy in the face of adversities.
I am not staying on top of homeschooling as much as I would like to be.
I am not quick to turn to the Lord with my frustrations and fears.

I am beginning to realize that maybe it really isn't about me working through all of my weaknesses in a false attempt to reach some level of perfection. Maybe, just maybe, it's about me realizing my need for the I AM to fill in the cracks of all that I am not. As I take my focus away from myself and my inadequacies, I find myself quietly reminded of all that He IS... and am humbly learning that He is always more than enough. For each of my weaknesses, He supplies his strength... not to change me, but to fulfill His will in me. His immeasurable Grace being perfected through all that I am not.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, 

so that Christ's power may rest on me.

2 Corinthians 12:9